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Haze

Artist

My name is kelen or better known in my music as Haze. I’m an 18 year old independent influencer. Specifically for mental health. When I was conceived my my father left before birth and my mother did it on her own. Even after 4 kids later. My mother is an amazing supporting mother. She’s always told me right from wrong even tho there’s temptation and the times where I just do completely opposite of what she says. But we all make mistakes and learn from it. For 11 years of my life I grew up in the neighborhood Westwood in Cincinnati Ohio. From there we moved to Kentucky to the suburbs of Covington. I’m the oldest (18) out of my siblings so I’ve had to be the one to set the example. It may have not been the best but after the year of 2021 everything has changed for the better. Before 2021 I was struggling from actions I made that got me in some Pretty deep trouble but if I could go back and change everything I’ve done I really would. But the outcome of my charges which were felony’s before I turned 18 was to go participate in a 6 month boot camp program in Southern Kentucky called the Appalachian Challenge Academy or ACA for short. I learned a lot while I was there and if any advice I can give to those who’s made some bad decisions and are dealing with charges or any deep trouble as a minor I would suggest one of these places. there’s at least 1 or 2 in every state funded by the National guard. As an older brother and an artist I’m looking forward to helping others with mental illness such as bad depression or anxiety. When I first started my music career all my close ones were falling off. In my head I’m thinking why are they not staying around? I thought for a bit. I don’t tend to judge myself but I do watch my surroundings and I told myself all the people that lost interest in me for becoming a singer/rapper will be the ones that realize they missed the most. When I was a newborn I was actually on the luvs diapers around the world for a few months as a model. My mom still owns a few of the packages and the clothes and shoes I worn in the picture. When I first went to kindergarten I was already reading at a college level and the teachers would end up letting me go to other classes in the high levels like 4th and 5th grade to read to them. The teachers loved me because I was so smart. Mommas always been the one to tell me I can do what I put my mind to. To be honest I’ve always like the idea of being a famous rapper. I’d always want to listen to hip hop and R&B and when I made my first song I think I was like 14 and it was from a breakup that made me down. But it wasn’t at all as this most recent relationship which got me focused on my music career. I don’t wanna speak names because that’s free clout but my ex knew I’d sing and rap I just never showed her any of my songs because I didn’t want her to judge me. Me and her met through our parents being best friends and ended up being together for 11 months. When I started talking to her I’d study her as hard as I can to find her flaws. There weren’t much. Until recently. On march 9th of 2022 she broke up with me because I was to emotional crying constantly because I felt her mother was picking sides with me and one of my younger brothers who is 16. And I’d always complain to her that I hated it. So 3 days before my 18th birthday she left me. My mother was in Kentucky at the time settling an estate. So for my birthday my mom ordered me a box of cupcakes and that’s it. The struggle we’ve been living in for almost the past 5 years is surreal. And I plan to do my best at what I am and make my momma proud. Money has never been easy for us and depression and anxiety runs in our genes. So when my ex left me I shut down. For 5 nights in a row after she left I’d have back to back bad dreams. And after that i still kept trying for her kept doing stuff for her but she eventually ended up saying some stuff that hit me pretty hard and I haven’t looked at or talked to her since. It’s like we’re complete strangers but with deep memories. I tried everything I could for her back but I just couldn’t deal with the fact I can’t have her so I shut down even more. For weeks I didn’t sleep or get enough food I had an 8 pack 1 week and had a 4 pack the next. It’s been so hard trying to sleep or eat or even have a stable mindset. But that’s why I let all my feelings out in my music. I doesn’t mean I’m a bitch it just means I have feelings and empathy. If you knew me and have ever seen my bad side you could never say I’m a bitch. I just have patience and a high tolerance to certain things but once I’m to that level I’m scary but I hate being that way so that’s why I try to keep it cool with everyone I can until I feel like I’m being used then they get dropped. I hope I can help others with similar problems. That’s all I want Is for people to get the help I’ve never had when it comes to heartbreak and relationships. Us men be giving a lot but we also get hurt. Not all men are unloyal. A lot of men are extremely loyal and caring but we also have the most weight on our shoulders mentally. I’m not saying there’s not some shitty guys out there because there are. But there’s also those men that take relationships really seriously and show nothing but love just to get broken and left in the end. So all my feelings about the way some of these females be playing is my motiv for this mission. Juice WLRD went through the same shit. And it’s kinda what lead us into addiction. Not directly but a lot of the times because the depression gets so bad you don’t know what else to do to feel better. I’m trying to keep a safe path tho. I’ve done some drugs in my past other than weed acid and shrooms but it wasn’t too much harder. I’ve done ecstacy once and I’ve done a perc once. I don’t plan to continue use but peer pressure can be a bitch and also I feel like some of the drugs actually open up your mind for more visual thinking. But that’s just my opinion. Like juice said it’s a gift and a curse. Me and him have the same personality type INFP which only 4% of the entire worlds population has. We’re introverts we don’t know how to actually talk about what we feel with others so I feel like when I smoke weed and I’m on acid or shrooms I can freestyle better because my mind is more open to thoughts. But to all my fans if y’all know the darkest of darkest places you probably can understand some situations that may occur during this career for my music. Not thinking anything specific at the moment but anything can happen. Peer pressure into something stupid or just having fun. I promise to keep my impulses to an extent because I know it can be hard. But I mainly think before I do now because of my past and so much bad stuff that’s happened. I want to keep a legacy going for all the fallen legends but I will do everything in my power to not become one of those fallen legends at such a young age. I want my peoples to know they always got someone here for them and I’ll be here to pick them up when they’re at they’re lowest moments. 🙏🏾🖤 999 much love to everyone